I have two complaints: I can't find my telephone. and I have too many clothes.
1. Who was your last kiss of 2007?
it depends - I kissed someone at the end of the countdown... I want to say him not my ex :/
2. What was your best vacation/trip in 2007?
melbourne, the extended version
3. Who were your best friends through out the whole 2007?
rachael, mia and chris - they haven't given up on me yet!
4. How many times did you move this year?
once
5. Did you make any new friends in the year 2007?
yeah!
6. How many different people did you kiss in the year 2007?
five. that actually is more than I thought...
7. Were you single or taken most of 2007?
single, in that stupid 'it's complicated' sort of way. never again!
8. Did you lose any friends in 2007?
oh the usual, about 50
9. Favorite tv show of 2007?
so you think you can dance...
10. Any new additions to the family in 2007?
not blood related.
11. Any new tattoos in 2007?
my mum got a butterfly on her leg
13. Favorite new item in 2007?
my coconut ice coloured DS
14. How old did you turn in 2007?
twenty six
15. Did you go to prom in 2007?
yes, but left very quickly, from being harassed by a prick
16. Favorite memory of 2007?
lying on the side of the yarra river after daft punk, seeing the stars dance, a balmy evening
17. Did anyone close to you die in 2007?
no no no
18. Do you think 2008 will be better than 2007?
if it isn't, I'll be dead before it ends!
19. what did u do on new years eve?
made an effort to just try drop all the bullshit and remember that everyone surely just wants to be a good person. I played a gig with my band, danced, laughed, talked, held hands, kissed and smiled.
20. What do you look forward to in 2008?
learning to drive and be me again, tennis, moving to shanghai (fingers crossed), being a better friend and seeing Jasper grasp the concept of time. Maybe.
What do I enjoy doing?
lunch in a park (sunny days - it's almost kings park weather!)
eating out
dinner with friends
meeting people
dancing drunk
moving furniture
boardgames, computer games, sporty games (ping pong!)
karaoke
working on music
playing in a band
anything with rach
decorating cupcakes
light gardening :)
I'm glad that you said 'I'm sorry about everything'.
It leaves me less angry and more prepared to move on.
However I'm not taking anymore responsibility than I should, and I'm certainly not taking any less from you.
We both made a lot of mistakes for each other and ourselves.
I, I was too weak and insecure to know what was the right decision to make, and you,
you were too young and arrogant to see how out of control I was, and consequently used my vulnerability against me - not on purpose of course.
I choose life, and in doing so, cannot have you in it. I understand now what Alex was saying, and smiled broadly as she smirked at me the other night. Your friends have seen what you've done and how it has affected me, and perhaps in the future you might see more clearly why I did what I did. And now, I don't even want to know your name. It hurts just to think it.
It's strange to be on the ocean and not seeing the sun set. I like it though, you can sit out there and not be blinded, especially when the orange full moon rises sending a stream of light over the black sea.
I'm in far north queensland, about an hour south from Cairns at a beautiful bay set in between hills of national park or rainforest or whatever ou call it here. We went swimming this morning and my son now has those delightful red bags under his eyes from not wanting to blind him with sunscreen. Mym mum runs the caravan park/kiosk here, so everything is pretty easygoing, and directly on the water. And I get that old favourite she used to make for me when she worked in a fish n chip shop when I was in high school. A hash brown burger. Protein zero? yay!
I'm jumping out of a plane tomorrow. Maybe. The skydivers land on the bay here, and it looks like alot of fun - tandem diving and all so I wont be alone with the parachute tag...
"You're looking at things the wrong way
It's not about you
It's about things needing to change
It's not that I'm happier without you around
It's that I'm happier because I'm taking control
Do you understand?
We love you S, we really do.
But you too need to change things in your life."
I cleaned the house
still haven't returned the things to the library
haven't made an appointment I need
found a house
am drinking real orange juice and have left the 2k song to sit for years, gathering some sort of musical dust
I feel like I'm in a limbo, about to move into that period of my life that will stay the same for quite some time. Something like the 'trying to be happy to be single, not so much a mess and creating, creating, creating' period, probably followed by some sort of weird relationship or something.
I don't even know what I'm saying. I just want to know what I want, and I want it bad.
change is good
I cannot let go of the last man I kissed.
Today I woke up thinking about him. This is wrong. Come on!
There's an element missing in this whole escapade.
My friends have laughed about him - one said he is 'flighty' therefore not worth it. Not the man I should really be wanting to spend my life with. I think this is true, and it helped when I first heard it, but the brain is so good at adapting that into good excuses.
Perhaps the element is that he is still so generous to me. That he feels he has done nothing wrong in finding another love when he desperately needed it, therefore leaving me unrequited, but requited. It's confusing.
The old me wants to write him off - laugh about the speed of it. Remind myself that I didn't let myself fall for him until I knew how much he liked me. Giggle at the good times we had, and leave it be. Be a good friend in his time of need. (this confuses me again - he found someone to do that, and that pissed me off, like I'm giving to someone so full of love already, it's being wasted, bouncing off in its uselessness)
anyway, get over it girl. There's nothing you can do, and you've got plenty of life to live
